xmas musings

(a post for all my catholic blog friends... n special wishes to fay n anna... n saby who asked me write something happy n xmassy... thanx for the blessings saby)



i dont even remember wat was my age when i first learnt my 'hail mary'... its such a lovely prayer... we used to say this one in school all the time... n when it was christmas... it was such a wonderful experience...

there was a chapel in my school... we'd go there every morning n pray... it was such a beautiful n serene place... i remember the cross right in the centre of one of the chapel walls... n the face of Christ... so beautiful... even when i knew he was suffering...

i m not a catholic by birth... but my early years of life have been influenced a lot by this religion... i had many catholic friends... i studied in a convent school... my tution teacher was a catholic... n i remember going to churches with my friends... i can never forget the byculla church (also called Gloria Church)... its such a beautiful church... built by the British... a stone edifice... with wooden pews... n candles n glasses... n a wonderful cross... i would specially go there during christmas... to see the stable n the decorations... n hear the choir... n the wonderful carols they would sing... my favourite being 'silent night'... let me sing this one for u..

Silent night, holy night
All is calm, all is bright
Round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace
Sleep in heavenly peace

Silent night, holy night!
Shepherds quake at the sight
Glories stream from heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing Alleluia!
Christ, the Saviour is born
Christ, the Saviour is born

Silent night, holy night
Son of God, love's pure light
Radiant beams from Thy holy face
With the dawn of redeeming grace
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth

i also remember this place which was called 'village'... it is near my moms place (dewdy u know abt this place?)... we would go there especially during christmas as many of my catholic friends stayed there... the minute u enter this place u feel as if u've landed up in a small goan village... small bylanes... piano music emanating from many houses... a huge christams tree... which would b decorated with beautiful twinkling lights during christmas... u have to see this place to believe that it exists in mumbai... n ofcoz the stable... it was so pretty... with small cut outs of animals... n baby Christ.. n Mary n Joseph.. n the three kings... wowww.. i miss those days when i was a kid n such things would make me dream of another world...

i also remember the last day in school before christmas vacations... we'd have a party... n then there would be a play enacted on the three kings n how Christ was born... every year for my 12 years in school i have seen this same play.. but it was always so new to me... the story was the same.. most of the actors were the same all the years... but how i used to enjoy it.. i remember the minute i used to enter the hall id try to get a seat nearest to the podium... lol i was silly i guess... but is was such fun...

n the best thing about christmas that i remember were the sweets my tution miss would get me... aww naah.. not the regular fare... she used to specially make me some sweet from gauvas... i dont even know its name... but it was real yummy... id harass my mom to make them for me too.. but they never turned up right... heh... i would tell my mom "only my most fave teacher can make these sweets... its not ur cup of sweet" :p...

hmmm these r my musings of christmas' that i have spent when i was a kid... i miss those days... they were the happiest ones thats i remember.... m planning to visit mom in a day or so... n u can bet i will go n watch the decorations at the 'village'... lol

merry xmas... n a very very happy new year to all of u...

laterzzzz

learning from death....

there r some episodes in our life that we vividly remember... even if years n years pass by... its been 5 years now...

i remember this day 5 years back as if it has happened just yesterday... if i close my eyes i can even remember the expressions on the faces of my family on this day... the look in their eyes... the look of sadness... the look of losing someone close... knowing that he was dying...

id like to requote a verse i had posted long back... its a verse by gulzar... it goes like this...

who knows,
when and where it will strike?
i m more scared of life.
death is okay
it strikes only once.

i saw my papa die right in front of my eyes... he was holding my hand... he was scared... i could sense it... scared not coz he was dying... scared coz he was worried what would happen to us??... but i think he knew we would b ok... we had a wonderful family... who would see to it that we never had ny major problems in life...

my mom... i remember her those days when he was real ill... not once did she cry in front of nyone... the strength that she emanated those days was amazing... all day she'd b with him... while i would run away from all the pain.. go away to my office... just generally be away from home... i would cry in front of her... but not once did she shed tears... i have learnt so much from her... to b strong n practical in life... thanx mom i love u loads... :)

my brother... he is younger to me... i still wonder how he coped with all this... looking after dad, taking him to the docs, looking after the family business... n wat not...

my family... every single day they would visit my dad... 4 months to be precise... for hours they would talk to him.. laugh with him.. cry for him when he wasnt looking... i m so thankful to them... without them i dont know what we would have done... one important thing that i have learnt is how important a family is...

my uncle... he never went home for days together... would stay with papa... all day he would sleep n night he would stay awake with dad... dad could not sleep... he was suffering from cancer... his legs would ache... all nite my uncle would stay with him... help him in his pain... i can never forget what he has done for us... he doesnt have a daughter... when i got married i asked him to b my dad (for the ceremony of kanyadaan).. he cried when i said that... hes my papa now :)...

my friends... tas, darsh, manish, preeti, nirav, my boss and all my office colleagues who saw me cry all day... n supported me... thank you all for being so lovely to me... i remember that day when every single one of you came to see me n help me with my pain.. i remember all your hugs n words of support...

thank you all once again... i have learnt a lot from all of you... all of you have made my life richer n better... i will never forget what you guys have done for me...

n for my papa... i can never forget him... coz i m what i m today because of him...

love u papa where ever u r... :))

laterzzzz all

the power of hurt....

it is said that people who r close to u hurt u the most... or rather they have that power... even if they dont mean to do so... n infinite number of pathetic comments from anonymous has never effected me... but one unmeant for action of those close to me has hurt me a lot... thats wat happened to me some days back...

let me narrate the whole story... my idea of quitting blogging isnt real new... i have been thinking about it since a long time now... not because i dont have nything more to say... its more because i dont have much time... to write or visit blogs n comment... i had spoken to invincible about this too... but he asked me to go on for a while...

but then something happened on tuesday which actually got me to write the last post about me quitting... there r some of my blogger friends who met up on saturday... n it was a real fast decision... they generally stay in the same vicinity so they met up... i read about this on invincibles post n i was hurt... i know i was being real mean n silly... but it really hurt me... n naah not because i wasnt even asked.. thats ok.. people forget... but what hurt me was that even after meeting up no one told me about it... i guess i was expecting a lot... i dont know... but i guess its just a human trait...

so this is wat led me to actually write up the post... the one saying goodbye... but little did i know what was going to happen after this...

the love n affection i have been showered by all of u has left me speechless... i dont know what to do... all day i have been contemplating... n i think this is the time i m going to pray to God n thank Him for giving me such lovely n beautiful friends... n those of u who i have never interacted with too...

so heres a message to all of u...

*st00nie... awww gal i m bak dont u cry now... n thanx for loving me... :)

*L... yeah mann i m bak..

*poison... u got ur reason here... but m bak..

*invincible... i m really sorry for blasting that day... n i m saying this again... its not ur fault... things happen... we have to live with them... thanx for the beautiful apology u have written... i really appreciate that... n remember i will never forget u... please dont go...

*puneet... no thats not the reason y i called it quits... but that led to me calling quits faster than expected... awww but i m bak... cant see everyone crying...

*mich... aww baby m bak...

*tanvi... lol sweety m bak... when r u coming back??

*anonymous... aww forget it!! :p

*sittingnut... u r right... i m not giving up such wonderful friends... thanx for visiting even whn i do not know u...

*johnny... i never even knew u abused me... lol so forget it... n thanx for visiting... i m bakk... aww by the way.. next meet u r surely invited :p

*rohit... thanx rohit.. i aint quitting nymore... how can nyone deny so much love???

*saby... thanx for the offer... lol but i hope u dont expect me to accept u as a teddy... i got mine already :p... oh n i like the song u wrote on keshis blog.. thanx again...

*bnb... awww this isnt ur last comment now... u better visit again... thanx sweetheart..

*uttara.... aww girl hugsss.... i know u must b feeling so guilty... i m sorry too... i m back now everything will b fine.. i promise...

*thanu, my unveilings, icyblue, varkey, still figuring out, vanathi, autumn storm, vivek, nikita, pradster, dinesh, de vile, manish, niki, phoenix, random thoughts, nanyaar, kerry... i dont know ny of u personally but it is really to know u all care so much... thanx all

*am00nie... awww girl i m bak... n the wounds all healed... lets rock blogsville with my 00nies :p...

*gangadhar... yeah i m bak.. thanx for remembering me...

*dewdrop... i know i was being childish then.. thats y this post... i m bak... thanx for being so wise... i think blogging helps us to learn a lot of things... n this is something i have learnt...

*kr00pz... hi m bak... thanx for the love...

*ashanthi... aww thanx girl.. but please i have had enough of personal posts... lol.. i'll visit for sure... n yeah m bakk..

*optimist... lol thanx... yeah i m bak... ohhh n ur vote did matter.. thanx again..

*divya... awww i dont have ur number girl... dont worry... i read ur offliners on my YM... n pls pls dont cry... i m bakk...

*kiran... i dont know u girl... but i think i owe u all an apology... i m really sorry for all this.. i never knew all this will take such a turn... thanx for understanding...

*cheesy... i m bak girl... :)



*z00nie... awww i m missing u... i know ur busy but i m still missing u...

*k00kie... i have left u last on purpose... i just dont know how to show how much i love u... all i got for u is thanx... i yeah i m bakkkk... yippieeeeee....


ps: i spoke to puneet, uttara, vinci and strawy last night... n i m really thankful for all of them to show n shower so much love on me... guyssss please lets forget all this.... n i have a request to all of u... please stop all this pin pointing... i personally believe that all this is not nyones fault... its just a little misunderstanding.... lets all forget this...

we have to learn from such episodes... i have learnt how much u all mean to me... n how much i mean to all of u... n now one more thing we all have to learn is to stop this blaming game... please please lets all get back together... hugzzzz.... one special hug to strawy n puneet... who went to all the trouble to get my phone number n calling me... thanx guys i was really surprised n elated...

laterzzzzz

bye

m through with my blogging... m00nies off...

thanx for all ur support.... will never forget u guys and all the love that u have showered on me... will keep on visiting ur blogs if i can...

laterzzz all bye

bachelors in 'phekology'

'phekology'... a total mumbaiya terminology... i dont think people who aren't mumbaites even know that this word exists... n others who know this word must definitely be hindi bollywood movie fanatics :p...

so whats 'phekology'?

in simple words it means to go on bluffing... on and on you go and dont even realise that people are calling you a 'pheku'... n ofcoz if u habe ever noticed theres a very animated version of showing that someone is a pheku... all u have to do is spread out your palm and shake it in front of the bluffer saying 'lapettt'... people will realise the guy is a pheku all the way... lol

i have met some such people too....

(1) mr shyam : we were in college when there was this new guy who joins college... shyam... a cute little guy who was always talking and laughing... so one day we asked him 'hey shyam where did u study earlier?'... n he very proudly says 'cal'... now ofcoz when one hears this word some of the first things that strike us are sun, sea, chicks, hunks n hollywood... wowwww... california... that was pretty impressive... some months later one of our other friends happened to talk to his mom on phone... this guy had his dads business going in california... so he casually asked... 'aunty where did shyam live in california?'... his mothers like 'california??? shyam has never been to california... all these years he was in calcutta'... awww calcutta!!!... cal!!!!.... duhhh

(2) my uncle : awww ok hes my favourite uncle... n he can bluff like an expert... if u ask me bluffing around without the other person knowing what u r upto shows how talented a 'bluffer' u r... i remember we were kids... n we had all gone to pune for some trip... all as in my whole family... so we were approximately 15 people... n we were at some river front... it was some sort of a tourist place... so there were many people around... n my uncle was in a funky mood... he gathered all of us kiddos n asked us to follow him... n ofcoz we were given strict instructions to keep our faces straight n not show that we knew him.... then he stood under a tree n started a speech... he went on n on about the place n its history n y was it so important... as if he was an expert historian... in 2 mins time all the tourists had gathered around listening to his bluff... n asking him all sort of questions... n ofcoz when uncles so good how can my brothers b left aside... they asked him real smart questions n he answered them back as if he was their teacher... lol i m sure this would have gone on n on... but my father interrupted this 'lecture' n shooed us all away... lol hats off to my uncle...

(3) mr sarosh : wowww... there is this kind of bluffer too... one who spins such tales that they r impossible to digest... ud just puke away this guys tales believe me.... 5 years of his tales in college n i had had enough :p.... one day we were all just sitting in class with nothing to do... we were in our last year of college... this guy enters n say 'whew!!! i m real tired'... so we asked him if he was ok... hes like 'dont ask me that... i had to go for n interview to calcutta'... (lol whats with calcutta n bluffing i dont know)... but ofcoz we were confused... he was seen all over college the earlier day... so how could he have gone to calcutta n be bak in say 30 hours????... so we asked him how did he go... 'oh dont ask... i got a call from asian paints... they have an office in calcutta.... i said i have to attend college tomorrow i cant come for an interview to calcutta... but they were so adamant on interviewing me that they called me back in half an hour saying... pack your bags n get to the airport as soon as possible... we got a chartered flight waiting for u there... call us from the airport we'll tell u the details then'.... mannnnnnnnnn chartered flight my foot!!!!... lol... do i even have to say we puked out this whole tale :p... heh

so have u met ny such 'phekus'?.... aww come on u must have... lets start with the first one who reads this... we can all laugh on the cute phekus n puke on the crazy one... so what r u waiting for... ur time starts now...

laterzzzz all..

ps : m sorry for not being regular with my posts n not blog hopping too... m real busy these days n this is going to go on for a while now... so my 000nies pls excuse me... bye